In looking back at my process over the years I have noticed an interesting phenomenon that I refer to as "using my path to go against myself." This behavior may be a surprise to many of you?.but as programmed ego minds we have been trained to use our life situations to go against ourselves since we were small. We have learned from those around us to use other people to raise our blood pressure, prove that we are not good enough, affirm that we will never be loved or that life is unfair. Unfortunately, the list of way we use others to hurt ourselves is endless.
I often see how many times people get fanatical about changing their lives at the beginning of their spiritual path. They see some positive change in their lives and want the process to be finished right now - as if instant awareness is an available commodity. They spend all their free time journaling, writing, recapitulating, going to workshops, and traveling on spiritual journeys, but they have no balance in their lives and are not having much fun. It is important to create enjoyment in life, because we don't know if we'll be around tomorrow.
We have a workaholic society due to our puritanical beliefs about work - for example: "Idol hands are the devils playground." It behooves us to look carefully at how we are creating the dream of our lives right now. Is there balance in our lives? Are we really happy? Has our path become a burden or dreadful? Or even worse?has our spiritual path started to look like a full time job?
I am not saying that parts of your path will not be painful or challenging to look at. Challenge and pain are natural in the course of any quest to transform. But, at the same time, if we engage in self-judgment or create rigid schedules for our journaling, our path will become a continuation of our "doings." Doings are activities we engage in that are programmed behaviors that we perform without awareness. We normally "do" things to abuse ourselves without consciousness, and we don't want our path to be an opportunity to perpetuate that abuse.
For example, we want to be the best student, to look good in our teacher's eyes so we can have approval and love. I remember having this exact experience, wanting my teacher's approval for what I was doing. Of course, the beauty of it all was that he couldn't care less. All my teacher wanted was for me to be happy, and to get over my need to link my self-worth to him or anyone else! Freedom is never having to impress anyone ever again because you are completely content and in love with yourself.
Your programmed mind will always make at least two proposals for any situation you are presented with. There will always be at least one proposal that appears seemingly logical but will actually be harmful to you. Carefully observe the logic your mind uses to justify everything you choose to do. It may tell you that if you do a long list of things you will heal yourself and be a good student. Another part of your mind will tell you, "I am tired, I can do this tomorrow." So which proposal do you listen to when both are in opposition to one another, and both are the result of programmed internal dialogue? Well, this is a most challenging question! The best advice is not to listen to either proposal because you cannot trust your mind. You may think one of those statements is the real you speaking but the real you cannot speak with words.
Listen to your heart. If you are simply exhausted then rest. If you are exhausted everyday, then there is an underlying issue that needs to be addressed first. I would ask, "Why are you tired all the time?" or "Are you creating stress in your life?" If the answer to these questions is "yes," change that first so you can have the time for your spiritual activities. Then your body will be happy and you will feel balanced. You will be able to focus on your process with more clarity if your body is rested and well cared for.
Watch the "logic" that your mind proposes to get you to go against yourself. Consider the justifications your mind is using to hold the status quo, sabotage you, and keep you from happiness. Be wary, be watchful and do not believe yourself under any circumstances! And above all do not empower your feisty program with the ability to use your path to go against yourself!
Sheri Rosenthal DPM is a master Toltec teacher and author of The Complete Idiot's Guide to Toltec Wisdom. Having trained with don Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements, she currently takes students on spiritual journeys, works with personal apprentices and enjoys being extremely happy. You can reach her at info@sherirosenthal.com or info@sherirosenthal.com
licensed cleaning services Park Ridge ..Though closely akin and sometimes used synonymously, John Rawls distinguish... Read More
What is a Christian? According to The American Heritage? Dictionary... Read More
Why do bad things happen to good people? Surely this... Read More
Many people are awakening today to the idea that the... Read More
It happens to us all from time to time, especially... Read More
I have a confession.I used to have doubts about God's... Read More
Have you ever experienced a traumatic event? I'm sure the... Read More
2 Corinthians 6:17-6:17For God so loved the world, that He... Read More
One of the first steps toward understanding the Tarot lies... Read More
I was recently asked how I interpreted the Mayan and... Read More
There once was a man who wanted to teach himself... Read More
1. Gabriel means: "God is my strength" or "God is... Read More
John 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that... Read More
Limiting beliefs, just like positive, empowering thoughts, provide a foundation... Read More
If you would like to learn to read tarot cards,... Read More
Whadda ya know?Seriously. With absolute certainty, what do you know?... Read More
Whenever, we have a task or project to carry out... Read More
There is nothing more valuable to a sentient being then... Read More
It's the most powerful weapon on Earth. It can turn... Read More
What power do we hold individually in the midst of... Read More
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God;I... Read More
Setting boundaries is a common expression that we hear almost... Read More
Baptism and christening ceremonies are an important event that signifies... Read More
While there are alot of warnings and admonishments regarding what... Read More
Now, I will recount in full what happened to me... Read More
on demand house cleaning Arlington Heights ..In a recent case study which I also summarized in... Read More
The Orisha are the Messengers of Oludumare, the God/dess of... Read More
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. --ROMANS... Read More
The possibility of almost 400 Old Testament prophesies coming to... Read More
Greetings my Dear Beloved SoulsWe have heard your cries, your... Read More
Last month, one of my readers needed a new car.... Read More
The Apocalypse, or unveilling, is the name given to the... Read More
Matthew 3:7-10 John Rebukes the Pharisees and Sadducees7 But when... Read More
Until recently, miracles were usually credited to a supernatural power.... Read More
For me, the best poetry stirs my soul; it awakens... Read More
Did you ever know somebody who easily accumulates wealth? If... Read More
Who is the more spiritual person? The woman out on... Read More
We hear this word so often and have one thing... Read More
An analysis of Western man's guiding presuppositions, A Review of... Read More
It's human nature to point a finger when we think... Read More
So, none of us arrived with an Owner's Manual, neatly... Read More
In the last 2 weeks or so, I have been... Read More
God !"My son will be brought up in a place... Read More
Many consider anger a normal human emotion and continue to... Read More
What's the difference? How are we supposed to tell the... Read More
Behold, a certain young maiden did often times and at... Read More
That we must live with imperfections is a fact of... Read More
Karen was the name of the reception person, who sat... Read More
A while back the Lord had given me this message... Read More
Recently it has come to my attention people are noticing... Read More
Spirituality |