I had visions of my daughter for about five years before she finally showed up. She turned out exactly like the little girl in my dreams who had haunted me all that time. I was so very glad to see that she was alive and real. I always thought she must somehow be more magical and special then other normal kids.
Her older brother had told her about reincarnation when she was only two years old. She would later yell at me during her tantrums, "Next time I'm born, I'm not gonna be your daughter!!!" I'd always laugh at her and say, "Oh yes you will! You have to be my daughter forever and ever!" She'd storm off to her room until she was done being angry about whatever it is that little girls get angry about.
She always acted like an old woman who was wiser than my son and I were. We had just sort of gotten used to the baby in the family behaving as the old one. When she was three she asked me one day, "Do you know why I was late?"
As I continued messing with my makeup and fixing my hair in the bathroom mirror I asked her, "Late for what?"
"For being born."
She had been due on Christmas Eve and instead had decided to show up on New Year's Eve. "Why were you late?"
"Well," She replied quite matter of factly. "It was Jesus' birthday and I didn't want to leave early."
I was a bit taken aback, "Who told you about Jesus?" I'm not a traditional Christian and hadn't told my children anything about the traditional organized religions yet. We didn't have any family or friends around who would have told her of such things. How in the world did she know about Jesus?
"Jesus is my friend. He lives in heaven with Michael and Cracker."
"Who's Michael and Cracker?"
She looked at me like I was silly for not knowing as she said, "Michael's my friend. He's going to help me find my new dad. Cracker is a clown and goes like this." With that she started rolling around and doing somersaults and trying to do cartwheels. Then she stopped and looked up at me and said, "They're still up in heaven playing with Jesus. When I get done with this life, I'm going back up there to play and I'm not coming down again."
"Why? Don't you like it here?"
With a rather bored look on her face she said, "Yeah, but I've already learned all my lessons and I only came because you wanted me to."
"Are you upset that I pulled you away from your friends?"
"No, I love you, so I came back. But I'm just not coming back again after I'm all done helping you this time." With that, we pretty much established that she was indeed the old soul caretaker of the family. We kind of already knew that.
Over the next couple of years, she would prove over and over that Michael was helping her to find her new dad. I was a single parent longing for my soulmate to come find me. In reference to my love life, she knew things she had no business knowing. She was told about things before they happened. Michael was always telling her secrets about the men I was dating. Michael was always right. She seemed a bit bored by the whole thing.
She made me believe that Jesus must have been real. I had never really been quite sure until my three year old talked of him without ever having been taught of him. She seemed so self-assured and at peace with the concept. She never spoke of God, just of her buddies and how they all loved to play together. She missed them dearly and yet she was never really alone. I would find her playing with Cracker and Michael in her room all of the time. It was all very different from her brother who had an imaginary playmate for a short time. She didn't have to sit and think about it. She didn't giggle as she "played" at having conversations with them. She was at peace with the fact that they were as real as her brother and me. Michael was her favorite and he was the one who told her precognitive things on a frequent basis.
I wasn't surprised that a child of mine would have a "friend" named Michael who told her things about the future. He was a member of our family until the ladies at the preschool told her that Michael wasn't real and she believed them. Once they convinced her that he wasn't real, she quit "seeing" him. At this point in time, she's not yet convinced herself that he's real and therefore still doesn't "see" or "hear" him anymore. A side effect they probably didn't consider when telling her that Michael was only make believe, is that she no longer "hears" or "sees" or "remembers" Jesus anymore either. By taking her best friend in the spiritual world away from her, they also took Jesus away from her. It broke my heart to see her turn away from Michael.
Now that she's older, she's a little bitter about it all. She wants to reconnect with Michael, Cracker, and Jesus, but she just doesn't believe in it all anymore. I tell her that someday, when she's ready, they'll come back to her. They're still here. She hopes I'm right. She's always seemed a bit unsure of herself since losing that deep and amazing spiritual connection with them. She is still a caretaker by nature, but her soul doesn't seem quite so old and wise anymore. She may not remember, but I hold the memories for her. The one thing I've learned about guardian angels is that they always look over us whether we believe in them or not.
Copyright 2003, Skye Thomas, Tomorrow's Edge
About The Author
Skye Thomas began writing books and articles with an everyday practical approach to life in 1999 after twenty years of studying spirituality, metaphysics, astrology, personal growth, motivation, and parenting. After years of high heels and business clothes, she is currently enjoying working from home in her pajamas. Go to www.tomorrowsedge.net to read more of her articles and to get a free preview of one of her books.
monthly home cleaning Buffalo Grove ..There is no incident in the life of Moses which... Read More
Paul is led up a 512 ft. hill, Mars Hill,... Read More
1. Identify a woman who is "like minded," who has... Read More
Rose Ann Schwab is an internationally and world renowned professional... Read More
The Planetary Spread is an excellent layout to use when... Read More
Often, in being dishonest about our own faults and failures,... Read More
Spirit - All Around Us, All of Us, Every One... Read More
We as human beings travelled in small bands for hundreds... Read More
There are many contradictions in life and none more easily... Read More
Although spring is just around the corner, there have been... Read More
An angel can be your best friend. Angels have been... Read More
Did we just overlook the amount of love that God... Read More
While there are alot of warnings and admonishments regarding what... Read More
Most of us are familiar with the inner criticism and... Read More
"If you can't dance with the devil You will never... Read More
Forget what you have read or seen about vampires. The... Read More
James 1:23-24Anyone who listens to the word but does not... Read More
Anyone who tells you that the path to self-actualization is... Read More
Coming face to face with yourself in the space between... Read More
I was reminiscing with a friend recently about his 'dark... Read More
If you would like to learn to read tarot cards,... Read More
I have been reading a lot lately about the concepts... Read More
Last week I talked about the need to practice emotional... Read More
There is an old tradition song called, The Lighthouse and... Read More
A Nathan type prophet sees with his eyes. A Samuel... Read More
scheduled maid service Mundelein ..New Age Spirituality is all about getting back your power.... Read More
We know that David did much to stabilize the Kingdom... Read More
Can you imagine being sent out into the wilderness for... Read More
As a Psychiatrist I spent most of my life training... Read More
Prior to the September 11th terrorist attacks on the United... Read More
Perhaps one of the most wonderful assertions that can be... Read More
Most of us think of what a wonderful world this... Read More
"Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my... Read More
Attract and hold your family at home with some unique... Read More
It's human nature to point a finger when we think... Read More
Paul is led up a 512 ft. hill, Mars Hill,... Read More
James 1:23-24Anyone who listens to the word but does not... Read More
Aristotle referred to happiness as the most we can achieve.... Read More
Some say praising Jesus is just singing. Others say it... Read More
Part Two ContinuedIn addition to numerous philosophical problems relating to... Read More
2 Corinthians 6:17-6:17For God so loved the world, that He... Read More
Everyday I am challenged to find the good in things:... Read More
Everyone is busy nowadays. It's hard to find time for... Read More
Ok, let's start with the amazing story of Robbie and... Read More
I had visions of my daughter for about five years... Read More
In Feng Shui, water symbolizes wealth. The word "fish" in... Read More
How do we feel the fullness of life itself?We have... Read More
Baptism and christening ceremonies are an important event that signifies... Read More
You're looking at one star in the middle of a... Read More
Of the many individuals who were touched through the ministry... Read More
Spirituality |